Leaving the past where it belongs. That is my new goal. Sometimes I have trouble figuring out the future because I have no idea where I’m going. I’m stuck right here in the present. I can’t change the past and I can’t imagine the future. I hate it when people ask me “Where do you see yourself in five years?” Well, Ummm….. I don’t have the slightest idea.
Eventually I will need to seek other employment as we are currently shutting down this company. I just can’t bring myself to actively search. Other employment means I will most likely have to go back to working in the city and I just don’t want to go there. Every now and then I will force myself to peruse the classifieds but I always walk away with a big fat NOPE. Do you ever read the classifieds and hear micro-managing snottiness? I do. I guess I’m always looking for what is wrong. I find myself judging others by the treatment I received when working for ***Contractors. They were so unethical and sent me over the sanity edge. I don’t ever want to be put in that kind of situation again. Don’t get me wrong. I am no Mother Teresa but deliberately harassing employees and not paying any invoices until they are at least 90 days old is enough to keep me up at night.
So, where do I go from here? My method is to blindly walk forward with no goals and hope that fate is lurking out there just waiting to slap me in the face with what is right for me. Great plan eh? Ok, not so much. I really need to get some serious goals. I need a dream. MLK had one. Why don’t I? Aren’t we supposed to be born with dreams that drive us to our future?